I've been constantly reminded of a past I've tried very hard to escape from for the past ten years. The Shimmer has decided to show me every single person who has ever had some importance to me, regardless of how dead they may or may not be. I didn't even have the chance to kill the one I'd want dead. And to top it all off, the Shimmer felt the need to insist that death was worse than that horrible tree.

[...it's not actually the tree that's bothering him all that much but that was the start of all this nonsense and he's still mad about it.]